well, i was just explaining what happened. because of the surgery that i should not have had, i have no female-type feelings. so i will not being marrying is all.
yes, i have that agoraphobia thing. i just developed it in the last year. i HATE going outside and never open the curtains. i cannot stand to be around people or in public. this is all new to me, was never like this before. i heard someone with this the other day...Paula Deen, she had what i had. she said she was a functioning agoraphobic, she could go out when she had too, but didn't like it. most of the time, she didn't.
as far as the success thing...i have had too many people telling me i am not. so, i am not. but, i do not care, so i guess it doesn't matter.
i will tell you something ironic. our society says successful people marry. that is what everyone is to do when they grow up. if you are not married by a certain age, it is deemed there is something wrong with you. i would have family members call me and try to get me to tell them i am gay. funny, i was never with a female, but the conclusion is you are gay. the ironic part: many people are divorced. that's ok. as long as you were married, it shows you were normal and you are even more accepted if you have kids. myself, i see it as more of failure to be divorced than to never be married, but that is just not the perception.
i am not saying you have to believe it or live it or anything, it is just a societal value that i grew up with.
that is great about your life and you worked hard. myself, i am just coming off an extremely abusive situation and on top of it i have no one here to console me and hang out with. so, it is hitting me like a ton of bricks.