Never give up Raynbo! I have no idea what you may look like, but your inner beauty shines clearly in your caring and thoughtful posts. I daresay that many of us here at CureZone have love for our Raynbo, who, like her name, brings a beautiful light into our daily lives. I know I do. And such beauty deserves her one true love to have and to hold til the end of their days. Here's hoping that you find the one meant for you - I think you will.