Torrie,
Start with walking around the block. Make a commitment to walk around the block at a certain time each day and do it. In a week that should feel safe. Then the next week go farther. This is how I started.
Hugs,
Luella
Torrie, the entire purpose of this exercise is to do it by yourself. This is to start to get yourself used to going out. When I went around the block for the very first time I, too, was alone. In fact, I was terrified. My husband had died of a massive heart attack and I had nobody else.
I know how you feel. Tell me, what are you afraid will happen if you go out and just walk around the block and then go back home and stay there?
Your honesty and wilingness to share so openly your experience is truly moving. I read this thread last night and thought of you both this morning while I ran. When this song came up, I thought of you again. I have spent the last 30 minutes trying to get it uploaded, still can't seem to get it inserted so I'm sending you the link. Now l'm late for work - oh well. lol I'll carry you in my thoughts today, I'm sure.
Because you shared you, I wanted to share this and say thanks!!! Hope you enjoy!
http://curezone.com/upload/Audio/Music/Unwritten/03_Unwritten.mp3
Oh my gosh Babette! Thank you! I love it! And I am saving it! It does say it all. I thank you so much for even being late for work for us.
This brings back such memories that I have a huge smile on my face. Back in the '80's when I was tearing down all the walls to find out who I really was, this was my theme song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6iuP87yhbw4
And I would get into it, I would sing it, and I would feel it. I had forgotten. Funny, how the past with all its tears can even bring warm memories.
I must get the soundtrack to both songs.
You have made by day!
Hugs!
Luella
thanks, but i already got a reversal. i got my period back for 2 months and had no symptoms of PTLS. then the 3rd month, wham, like a ton of bricks. i did find out that one of my tubes is closed, though, so it may be affecting me. i am thinking of going back and having it reopened. but it will cost some money and is more surgery and no guarantees they can do it or that it will do any good, just haven't tried to do it yet, i might.
i think i have some glutamine in my cabinet. i'm not real good at taking pills. yeah, it sucks that men do not have to worry about being raped. that reminds me of my theory of rape, that men do it because they are physically stronger. i mean yes, they like sex and want it, but if a man took the chance every time he wanted to rape, of getting his ass kicked, he would not do it. some people say it has nothing to do with sex. i say to them, why doesn't he just just beat them up then? i think it has to do with sex and being stronger, a bad combination if a man is ok with raping. if i had my way, men and women would have been born with equal strength. it wouldn't look bad because it would have been all we ever knew, nothing to compare it to. these girls do not have to worry.
LOL LOL LOL! Oh how funny!
Any type of abuse, be it physical mental, sexual, has to do with power.
Hugs,
Luella