that sorta sounds like some scientology mumbo jumbo. i don't feel like a victim. in fact, i am very fortunate to have a roof over my head, parents, a lot of good times in my life despite 33 yrs of mercury poisoning. i don't feel like a victim, but i have always been a martyr, meaning i sacrifice my own happiness and well-being for others or for a cause. it can take a toll on one mentally, emotionally, psychologically, and physically. i just sorta grew up that way. i was an only child. my parents raised me to help everyone and give and that is where it comes from. the only thing is, they are so much better at it. they balance is so well and i am mesmorized at how they do it. because of my illness, i was never in a position financially to really help people while maintaining myself, but i gave to people anyway. i kid you not, i would have people calling me at 2 am to buy them a car or come pick them up in california (i lived in oregon), buy them a new wardrobe, etc.... i lived that way so many yrs and one day, i stopped doing so much and people were not too pleased. but i was told by many that i was being walked on, used, etc... and i finally had a boyfriend who was so abusive and spent all my money, that i put my foot down.
but when i got down here, i sorta went back into that mode. so, i did for others and sacrificed my own health and well-being. and now i am at the point where i am lonely and withdrawn and have lost interest in not only myself, but others, too. i think the problem is being separated from my family, my friends, my life...everything i ever knew. i want my life back. and my life is in oregon. yes, i am a victim of what was done to me since i got here by someone i trusted, but he has many victims and anyone in my situation would have felt that way. my problem is that i tolerated it too long because i was nice and had hope. i got caught up in the abuse syndrome. you are treated nice, then treated bad, but you make excuses for them, always wanting them to treat you good again. i wrote about it here, actually:
i think a good overall diagnosis for me would be clinical depression, because i bet if i filled out a questionnaire about it, i would fail, or pass, however it is looked at. i was very lucky growing up, because i never had depression. i had it one time when my cat died and it didn't last too long, a month or two, don't know. but, when i was at the height of my mercury poisoning, i suddenly got depression after being in an abusive relationship. when i got the mercury out and chelating, i was ok again, a month after. in fact, i was on top of the world. but, the person i believed in was just like that abusive boyfriend i had prior and i ended getting sucked in again. i was very vunerable, wanting to trust someone again. at this point, i am simply tired of living a lie. i cannot get better ever as long as i live that lie. while i am not well at all right now, at least i am smart enough to know that much.
You are after my own heart. I love animals more than people too. They love you unconditionally and are loyal. My Misty has not left my side since my mom passed two years ago. As I walked down the hall that day, I felt something brush my leg. It was Misty and we have been inseperable ever since.
I too rescue dogs. I have Misty, Rascal (appropriately named) and my manx, Maggie May. Recently, I have rescued Sam and Susie. I am in the country, so it really doesn't matter how many dogs I have. And they all get along, except for Misty who wishes she was an only dog. Angel is precious.
If you are happy with your life circumstances, you are fine. If it ain't broke, don't fix it. I am happy with my circumstances too and I am alone much of the time. It's my own little world.
Bless your heart Torrie, I don't have a set schedule and I am out of town at the drop of a hat with my Dipetane business. Right now it wouldn't be feasible.
Sweetie, we have to get you together. I would like to send you a link that would relieve your anxiety. It is natural herbs, and no we don't sell them. Before I do that, I have to know if you are on any prescription medicines, as they may conflict.
Your serotin levels are out of whack and that is a lot of the reason for why you feel the way you do. It could also be part of the reason why your self esteem is low. All this also has a physical aspect to it. At the same time, we need to pull out by the roots those demons of your past that have told you that you are not successful because of this or that. They are a bunch of lies.
You are doing something else that is very common in someone with an anxiety disorder. I used to do the very same thing. You are worried that you may have a terminal illness. You have a lot of what if's going on. Chances are that all your what if's will never come to pass. What if's almost never happen.
Where do you live in California? I may know people in your area. You remind me so much of myself. I want to reach out and hug you, so accept my virtual hug.
Speaking of Dipetane, I have to go visit my local customers and see how they are doing. I will be back later tonight.
Hey, there's hope. Really. Did you notice the song I think that Babette sent? And did you notice the song that I posted back? They are great songs. Listen to them, get into them, sing them and dance.
Before I leave, I want to give you some affirmations to use.
I am capable.
I am worthwhile.
I am beautiful.
I am lovable.
I attract abundance.
Post them on your refrigerator or bathroom mirror and everytime you see them say them over and over and believe it. Because that is the truth.
I see you have another post, but I am late and I've got to go. Will talk later.
i take smart drugs, but don't always remember, except i take metformin and eldepryl every day. i doubt i can take any anxiety stuff with eldepryl.
well, i am not stressing over having a terminal illness, i am just suspect of it from my symptoms. i had 33 yrs of mercury poisoning and my cousin is 52 and dying of esophageal cancer and he had these same symptoms. i am just thinking realistically, that i cannot count it out. i have to go see, but i have to fix my jaw first.
no, i wouldn't make it to mississippi for 3 or 4 months.
I tend to be a bit naive at times. What are smart drugs? No, I would not recommend any type of herbs to anyone using prescription drugs. What are they for? do they help your anxiety?
How many months has the doctor told him he has to live. Send him to the Oleander Forum and also to this one, He does not have to die. With Tony's anti cancer protocol, he can regain his health never to have his cancer return again. I believe that somewhere in this forum he has also written about Oleander. But in the Oleander Forum there is all sorts of information that Tony has spent years researching. In Tony's absence, I am here to answer questions for you and him. Tony will lead him in ways to live a totally healthy lifestyle. Diet plays a very important part in the prevention and healing of cancer.
You are welcome to join that forum too. Tony is out of town for about ten days but he will be checking in from time to time as his schedule permits. I don't have the controls to approve anybody at the Oleander forum, but in the meantime you can read the articles and posts and learn quite a lot. Here is the link.
Oleander Soup is not just a cancer remedy, we all can make it and take it. However, caution must be taken to follow precise instructions, as it can be toxic when not cooked and taken as directed.
This forum will give you the history of the Oleander remedy and everything you would want to know about. This includes testimonies. Tony and I are here to answer any questions you may have.
Oleander Soup will give your body perfect alkalinity. Disease cannot exist in a body that hasperfect alkalinity. I invite anybody interested in natural healing and a natural lifestyle to join our forum.
LOL! I'm getting sleepy too and will call it a night shortly.
Some people don't know any better and a doctor will just put them on anxiety medication. Next thing, they are addicted and can't do without them. The withdrawal symptoms on getting off them is a horrible roller coaster. Some will not even consider getting off of them thinking that is their lifeline in order to fit into society.
I have a friend who is on Paxil now and out of curiosity I looked up the drug and read about it. It has some very bad and inconvenient side effects which most people are affected by. Yet she is willing to put up with the side effects in order to live her life. What she doesn't realize is that she's not really living because under the influence of that drug she doesn't even know who she is anymore.
And some will jump at anxiety drugs because they are desperate to feel well. Then they get caught in the anxiety drug trap. Either way you look at it, they are trapped.
i would love to have that cat. it is just that i don't know if i can take care of a cat, can't take care of me. but i would take it as a loner to try out.
no, i don't like drugs. i take smart drugs, only. for depression, i take eldepryl, but it is not a very good antidepressant according to today's standards, outdated by 20 yrs, but i don't care, because that is only a side effect of it, that it helps depression. the other benefits are mainly what i take it for, and have for around 15 yrs i think.
i'll answer the rest of this tomorrow. i would love to send my cousin to that forum. he doesn't believe in alternative stuff. he and his family and 100% mainstream. they totally believe anything the drs say. i sent info from the cancer clinics here and nothing. i hate losing people to cancer when it is unecessary, but he will be dead soon, because they gave him a 5% chance. but is really a 0%. what they are doing is hoping for a miracle. he cannot handle chemo, so he does radiation, but they said he would need both if he wanted to live and extra 3 months.
ok, i'm more awake now. when they first found it like 3 months ago, they said he had 3 months, i think. then, another dr said he had like a year or something, but 3 extra months with chemo and radiation, which they advised.
the Oleander thing sounds good, just i am afraid because i keep hearing it isn't made right, it can kill you or something. i will look into later, though.
This better explains smart drugs. It's just my thing, been following the movement since 1986. Tony doesn't like them, it's ok, but I do.
Here are a few I listed, but there are tons more: