Yes, that is basically the crux of my struggle - knowing in my hear that I am(naturally, as that is just me) walking a path in this world that feels right in my heart. Like you, I greet the world with a smile because to do otherwise would be to be someone else. So, it is not so much that I "try" to do this (except in cases when I get frustrated, then I may have to "try" more than usual, lol!) but just that is me (my spirit). Not that I am not human (threads such as this prove that I am only human), but overall on a day to day basis, I walk a walk I am at peace with.
Yes, it is man's interpretation (and fear, and weird need to be the one and only) that takes things (scripture) and twists them to match up with what they already believe - it is a need to be comforted that in the end they will be ok and how they live is justified. I guess I am no different in that. Which is why I have thought, "what if those who say I will go to hell for my beliefs (that we are all one, we are all blessed beings, we are all brothers) are right?", even though I know deep inside that for them to be correct, God would have to be an entity that I would choose not to worship. I would rather be wrong in my love and tolerance for all groups of people, than to worship a God that would send some of his children to hell for not following this or that devisive belief, so in my mind, God cannnot possibly be the way some have interpreted him to be.
Anyway, thanks for the nice compliment. I appreciate it and you have a beautiful heart as well.