Re: Depressed, wishing I’d never taken iodine

This message I written months ago. I truly never thought I would still be here in this mess. 27 years old and I need to resign as a teacher. 27 years old and I need to move back in with my parents. 27 years old and I am bed ridden. I never in a million years imagined my life would come to this. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. I’ve been so determined to get better. My diet has been depressingly clean for four months now. It doesn’t help I’ve lost 20 lbs and all my friends and family think I’m insane for restricting my diet. If I hear “eat a hamburger” one more time I will snap. I’m angry. I will never forgive myself for taking f****** iodine. I hate myself for It. I was trying to be proactive and prevent any dieases in the future. I look at all my friends my age who don’t do this stupid s*** like take iodine. They are happy, just living life to the fullest. Its scary that once you do something like this youve ruined your life. No doctors can help. I learned this after seeing countless different ones. Hollistic, naturopath, intregrative, functional, you name I.T. They all have one thing in common $$. I will sell my car, give every cent I have to even be diagnosed with what the f**** is going on. I’m not sure how I’m suppose to go on like this every day. I’m loosing hope. Researching is driving me mad. I diagnose myself with a new diease everyday. My newest theory is Iodine causes dybosis by killing off good and bad bacteria. I’m still seeing mucus in my stool to this day. Who knows. ANY help would be truly appreciated. I am dying over here :( Tweet