OK! Its only 2 pages on word doc.

Thanks Peachy,
Your post is great. I stilll have to read it again. Only 2 pages on a word doc. I printed it.
Ah ha...no longer felt you *deserved* the negativity. Never thought of it that way. I bet I do think I deserve to have all the garbage dumped on me. Actually people have said to me that my life is so perfect I deserve to have bad things happen to me! Nice, right?
Yes, love does seem to be the answer to most things. I am a little low on self love I am discovering. Seems the more stressful my life was, I couldn't keep up with everything. I still always feel like I didn't complete one task or another. It resluts in feeling pretty low all the time. I think thta's when I started eating a lot. I was ill before that, but eating really ruins a good detox, well chocolate chip cookies do. I use them like a drug, but no one can take that very seriously, but I see myself and know its a serious emotional thing. It stems from all the absorbtion of negtaive energy that I have been doing. It does begin to take an emotional toll.
Do you do any medatation tapes. i don't know how too meditate, but I need some peace time everyday.
I like the imagery you gave me. That seems to help separate the emotions from myself. I like the scooping the trash and the screen door keeping the cartoon bugs away! Why does imagery work so well when its like playing pretend? Although playing pretend works well for a lot of things.
How do I NOT project emotions of my own out? I think I wear my emotions like a hat, its just out there! Have to work on that.
About the scanning. I never did that before, but sometimes I'll drive somewhere, reach the destination, and then feel like I should not be there for some reason. So i just leave. I thought is was me being afraid of things for no reason! Although, any time I ignore those feelings I live to regret it!!! I replay the feeling again and again in my memory and i just can't deny anymore that there is an ultimate truth in them. The message is always right!
Friends are hard to make because I naturally like everyone easily and they slowly drive me off a cliff! The cliff of sanity that is. Its so one sided, i get no good energy back from them. Maybe one day I'll meet more people like you and Tracey and other sweet people on curezone.
Let's have a curezone party!

Talk to you soon,
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