My child didn't play for so long...

Once my parents split, Life got serious fast. I was 17, so I wasn't a little girl, but it made me very fearful and I have been fearful ever since. Being two women a lone (me and my Mom) our lives have been filled with fear. My dad brings more danger to us, talking badly about us to ghetto women he dates that say they are going to get us. He's a "drama queen", he never got attention as a kid. The years up to 14 yrs old, we were really close.

So I still have fear issues and use seriosness to cope. I was very serious during college...people told me to "lighten up" or "take a chill pill" all the time. Hahaha I thougt they wanted me to fail my exams that's how crazy I was. Ha hah ahha.

To be honest, I don't know how to let go of all the fears etc.. but I'll work on it.

Ya, I am very very sensitive...many times I feel people's emotions when I look at them. Its annoying at times because I get sucked into the person and forget what I am doing. Like at the bank or supermarket...anywhere..I have to not look at people so that I don't do that. Sometimes people just come to me, though too. It makes me sick sometimes because I get upset for them. My parents noticed it when i was really young.

With my own emotions I can be quite stoic. Whatever comes, I will deal with it. Only cry at movies. Its bad. I have to try to be more spontaneous and not judge myself. I just hold everything in all the time.

I can see the shadow of the blue monkey is a challenge for me. I need a teacher or something.

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