All these times, I thought I was psycho...

When I was seven years old there was a hurricane where I live. The storm had finally stopped, my Mom was taking a nap, and my Dad said to me, "Lets hurry up and go to the supermarket now during the Eye of the storm." I said OK. I was seven...I wanted bubblegum. We left the front door the air was calm, like a stormm had never even been there. I went to the car and got in. My Dad was loooking at the bushes and shrubs to see if they were broken. I got out of the car and yelled, "RUN! Daddy! Run! Hurry!!" He ran really fast to the car, hamming it up to humor me. He got in and looked out the window behind me. His face turned white, he said, "How did you know that was going to happen?" I said "What ?" The steel pillars of our house crashed down into our driveway and rolled over our lawn. There was a loud crash, but I never heard it. If he was still looking at the bushes...he would have been smashed like a grape. He asked me a hundred times why I told him to run. I said, "I don' t know, why did you listen?"

I went to a hypnotherapist when I was 20 because I thought people were draining me and I wanted to be a lone all the time. She said I had anxiety and did not know how to relax.

Everyone tells me their problems. People who don't know me say they feel drawn to me. They want to be my friend so badly. My teachers told my Mom I was too smart to be the center of the social circle. Our phone rang off the hook when I was in highschool. Every guy thinks I'm their "soul mate". It sounds nice, but it pulls all the energy out of me (it makes me tired, nautous, sad all at once)! Then I don't like people and go into hiding.

You probably all feel this way too, when you help people and give them the tools to improve their life/health....and they come back again and again with the same exact problem. Again and again..... They just want you to make them feel good and suck the good out o you, and they don't want to do ANY work themselves!!! Do you know what I mean?
That drives me insane. Its so detremental to my health!

Yes...I can send and pick up when people are thinking of me. Usually they call a minute or two later. Or I dream about them and something happens to them. I know months in advance that someone will be coming back into my life. I never ever thought it was a coincidence, but what can I say without sounding crazy.

I don't want to be a hermit forever..just until i get my health back. I won't be selfish forever.

Weird it just occurred to me, I think that's why i like to sing because I feel that I am giving people good energy, but somehow it is less draining to me. Why would that be?

Thanks You Guys are the Best!!
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