Don't keep trying, just try to find peace!

You have every right, more so than anyone I've ever met, to be angry at the christian following. Alot of what I understand has come from discovering about the hebrew culture of the time. You are right, many (too many) use this religion/belief system as a way to further their own designs. They are no better than the sadducces of the past.

Here's an interesting thought. My brother has studied buddism and has mentioned that alot of what Jesus taught is what the buddists live. Like I said in my earlier post, God understands. It is the people, the humans, that are in the wrong. They have used what was good and turned it to bad. Go where you can find peace. Follow the religion that allows you to do the most good. Even the buddists follow laws (that might not be the right word) that are similar to the commandments. One last thing, when Jesus said families would be torn asunder he meant what has happened to those like you by those like the ones who hurt you. He was pointing out that not everyone would agree and division would come because of it. An example from my life. My mom is a stanch catholic. She isn't happy about my new non denominational church I attend. It's the same belief system, just a happier way of worshipping. The catholic church has become everything that Jesus was against in the Jewish Religion! That has caused a seperation between us. On the subject of belief and faith we definately do not agree.

Now, on that trying harder. You have been too badly hurt. Too many have used christianlity as a battering ram in your life. For you there is no try harder. Can a person with a crush leg try harder to walk? Can an ostrich try harder to fly? Can a dead dinosaur try harder to be alive? No! It's not possible. Accept that you have been hurt. Accept that the God (the real one not this vindictive devil made known to you) understands. If buddism gives you peace and comfort, follow it!! Do what is necessary to make yourself whole again. No person on this earth is able to say that that way is wrong. None of us can judge. None of us is worthy of that position. Rant and rave at God if you have to. Scream all the hurts at him who created us. Put your anger at his feet. He can handle it, and He understands. And then follow your new path, and allow yourself to heal from your wounds.

Remember, you are a beautiful person with much to give. Just follow the path that allows you to be able to give!! (I'm still going to pray for your healing. You deserve the compassion after everything you've been put through!) Tweet