GOD versus religion - my 2c worth

I used to be a Christian. I prayed and did everything I was supposed to do to let Jesus into my heart. Unfortunately, God never spoke to me or whatever he was supposed to do. I left the church as a suicidal person because of their sermons of hellfire and brimstone that made me feel totally worthless. I had to leave because I would sit in church and cry and want to crawl in a hole.

I was told that if I was baptised and accepted Jesus in to my heart (whatever that means) that everything would get better and life would be good. Well, I did all that; I was still unemployed, broke and nobody at church would help me find a job. I have three college degrees and lots of job skills. And I felt worse and checked myself into the county mental hospital for two weeks after one of my church members called me up and told me I had no right to charge money for some work I was doing for a minister. That sent me over the edge.

Christianity was a con job and a farce.

Because Christianity is based on the doctrine of original sin, that we all have to "take the rap" for something that each of us had nothing to do with, I feel that it is often evil and pernicious. I think it is emotionally and mentally abusive to a lot of people. It causes a great deal of low self esteem because people realize they are not perfect, so they don't even want to try to be good. The up and down cycle of sinning and confessing and attempting to do better is very exhausting.

I also do not believe that if there is a God that that entity sends people to hell for infinity, nor that we could be tortured in hell since we won't have a body anyway! I cannot believe that Christianity is the only true religion since there are six billion people in this world and there are thousands of different languages and cultures. Plenty of other religions say they are the true religion, based upon their evidence, which is no more valid than the evidence of Christianity. All the holy books were written by men.

There are a million holes and inconsistencies in the Abrahamic religions. I cannot accept a religion that has a god who randomly kills large populations of innocent people for no reason except that he had a bad day, or a jesus that tells people "I come not in peace but with a sword". That is not a loving religion to me, no matter how it's explained away.


God has not talked to me. I have no evidence that there is a God other than the natural processes of the universe and life. I don't think that just because the universe and life on earth are quite complex, that something made all of it. Furthermore, I think the grandeur of creation that I have studied through Science is far more wonderful than the version of creation the bible tells us. One of my degrees is in science. If anybody wants to tell me that I did not pray hard enough, or that if I was a Christian at one time, and am not one now, then I was not a "true Christian", then that is insulting to me and it is a logical fallacy as well.

Everything in Christianity is the same as in the cult of Mithra. Mithra was born on Dec. 25 of a union between a god and a human female, could do miracles, rose from the dead, etc. It was all stolen from ancient cults and the names were changed. Even Christmas trees and Easter Eggs are pagan!

I have been studying Buddhism and Hinduism for a long time and find them very useful as ways to understand spirituality. They have absolute morality. That absolute morality says "Don't harm anyone or any living thing. Period. Don't even eat meat if you can avoid doing it." No guilt trips, no "Christ died for your sins" stuff. It's very simple. In fact you can be a Buddhist and be an atheist, as Gautama Siddhartha, the historical buddha, is merely the teacher, and is not considered to be a god-man.


I call myself an atheist/secular humanist/seeker. Religion is a cultural thing and the reason most people are members of a particular religion is because it is predominant in the society or group they were born into. Most people don't ask if their religion is helping them, they just go along with it. I've asked lots of questions that Christians cannot answer. If Jesus wants me to follow him (whatever the concept of "jesus" represents) he better SHOW me what's going on. Hasn't happened.