I am sorry to hear of your pain

It must be very difficult to be in the situation you are in. just know that you are not "supposed" to feel a certain way, and you are entitled to your own felings which stem from many different things. I sense your feelings of betrayal and resentment in feeling that your mother did not do for you what you wanted or needed, as well as your disconnect from your family as you are not motivated by the same things they are. those are very powerfull feelings to be dealing with. I can sense also a strong feeling of boredom. just know that you have a right to feel this way, but also these things can be changed. there is hope. take one day at a time and set some goals for yourself. start by going to the affirmations forum here and pick some out to say everyday! everyday! everyday! once you have proven to yourself you can do that than add some new things. practice driving everyday! you will be on a roll... i just know it. things will open up for you. you do not have to mend all of your famly relationships to be happy, but I think eventually there will be roon for forgiveness. you have love within your heart that is blocked at the moment. you have more skills than you take credit for... I thought you articulated your feelings very well. best wishes on your path to radiant health, from healing Tweet