Re: I truly despise my mother. I really do.

You really remind me of me when I was 15. I have to agree with the two previous posters. Blaming your mother for everything and sitting around feeling sorry for yourself will get you exactly where u r right now. Nowhere. Only you can change your life and only you can make it better, not your mother. Parents aren't perfect and They think they are doing the best for you and in their hearts its true, when in reality it may have been the compeleat opposite. I have hated my mom too, for so much I'm not going to bother writing, but there was no sence in tring to change her to work with me, and she'd never understand that she did anything wrong anyway. I had to get out, and I did and went away to college. I think being far away from my mother saved me and our relationship. Now she's dieing of cancer and it's one of the most painful experiances of my life. We never got to have an "adult" relationship. So my advice to you, change yourself, stop trying to change your mother, and stop feeling sorry for yourself. You beat cancer 4 times, that's remarkable, you can't balme your mom for causing it either. Why don't you sign up to a cmmunity cllege or take clases for a career, and start living your life. It's not going to happen, you have to make it happen. Tweet