Re: I truly despise my mother. I really do.

Your situation is all too common...Mom or Dad wasn't perfect so now you blame all your problems on them. It's really just an excuse, a reason to fail. Hey...GROW UP!! She probably did the BEST she could with what she knew, may even have issues of her own, but this is YOUR LIFE...you aren't hurting anyone but yourself.

I am a Christian so I would recommned reading the Bible, and praying, Lord knows it got me through a lot of things, and it continues to.

And did you know...it is wrong not to honor your parents...it's one of the ten commandments. If you can't honor and respect her(meaning not using her too) then you really should move.

I'll conclude by saying this: You cover a lot of issues in your post. You need to seek counseling, therapy, SOMETHING! because you are feeling a lot of pain, and you don't have any solutions. Take the good advice. See someone about your issues before you look up one day, and ten years have passed and you'll be sorry you wasted your time hating and not forgiving. Tweet