Re: Oh lord..

Oh no its not blathering Im very interested in your story as well as everyones stories who have commented on my post.. It may sounds silly but I come back and read this thread at least once or twice a day. It really helps me. I KNOW I will pick the same type of guy if I just go out projecting my need for love and trying to make up for the empty spot he is leaving inside of me. I dont want to look for someone to be with (even just sexually, because as much as I want it, that can lead to other types of drama from past experiances). Im trying to face myself this time and really grow from this. BUt damn its so hard. Ill be absolutely fine, feeling strong, confident, excited about MY life but then Ill imagine his face or think about him flirting (or worse) with someone else and Ill just break down and cry. I never know when these episodes are gonna happen either..happened today while working..in the car (Im a delivery driver as my "day job")..broke down crying and had to go drop the delivery all red eyed looking a mess..ah how embaressing but at least Im surviving.

Thank all of you so much for helping me through this SO SO MUCH. You are all so wonderful, I wish there was something I could do for you in return! I guess all I can do is get wiser and come back and give others advice one day.