Thank you but I was highly motivated by a dear friend, and seized the opportunity when the moment felt right. It made total sense to me as what so far has been the greatest hurdle in my life. That sounds a little far-fetched, because life presents challenges often, but this particular issue may just be every sane person's greatest fear. And one of western society's greatest taboos.
WHEW!!! I am still basking in the fact that I did it. In fact, there was such a feeling in the midst of it, kinda of like I was in a dream state, almost surreal. And afterward, I couldn't believe it.... what a feeling!