I did it!!

I actually participated in what is a kind of Shamanic exercise recently. Summer is as good a time as any for nakedness when the weather is warmer, lol.

I was totally opposed to the idea when I heard about it. It brought up major resistance. After all, this was a recurring nightmare for me as a child, finding myself naked at school or somewhere. I think it's a common theme in people's dreams.

However, since I am on the path to dissolve my fears, what could be more powerful than conquering this one! YIKES!!!!!!! It took a few days pondering the challenge.... soooo.... I began with baby steps, I went skinny dipping with my friend and found it to be no big deal! soooo.... I thought "well maybe"..... but NOOOOO I can't!!!!

Anyhow, a few evenings later, I did it! I was alone in the middle of the night. There were lights on in some peoples homes, but it was very quiet. I stood at the door, looking out, wondering if I could take the leap. My heart was pounding! I thought...oh what the bleep, just DO IT! I stepped outside, heart pounding..... I proceeded to walk. The air on my (total) body actually felt very nice, a brand new experience. No wonder babies and young children love to run around naked. Anyway, I walked around with my head held high, with mindfulness and a feeling of power. Each step was taken rather slowly with awareness. In a nutshell, this was FREEDOM. This was the ultimate test (for me anyway) of getting free of society's constraints and "shoulds".

What came up for me was all kinds of body image stuff, stuff about "what would family and neighbors think???" OMG!!! "What if they think I am crazy?" After all, in the past, I thought only people very high on something or crazy or perverted, did this kind of thing. By the end of the walk, I had processed all my fears about it, and was ready to get back indoors. WHEW!!!!! But WOW!! what a rush, what a high!! I did it!!! Hey, if I can do that, do I have any limitations????? I felt free and powerful.

I am a changed person as a result of this exercise. I know that I am even still integrating it on all levels. Now when I am out and about, I smile and remember....

I highly recommend it, it is very important, to me anyway, but maybe some of you have no issues around this, LOL. Tweet