i know exactly how you feel, I do the same, on many days I just don't want to deal with this any more, so tired of it
but with systemic worms it's imppossible to live a normal life at least I feel them always and how can one forget about them if they are pinching and crawling all over? - impossible
and I too just want to have it over, takes a long time to clear systemic worms, especially filaria - read about onchocerca volvulus
there was somebody else who had this o-vovlulus that I met before I knew I have it too and she suffered for over 15 years even using zappers,herbs and all kind of other supporting strategies, but these filaria worms are absolutely the worst, extremely hard to get rid of them; what was helping her the most she was saying was neem and salt+vitC protocol, but I can't find out if she's ok now, I don't have the contact info now