I'm in the studio, so I get distracted. I wanted to tell you that this Thing, this monster, does not deserve your forgiveness or excuses. He has perpetrated crimes against you and sins against women - you are not the first and you will not be the last. Imagine if you brought a daughter into this world with this Thing...just imagine.
You do not owe this Thing a second thought. You are not responsible for getting help for HIM - you are not responsible for stressing HIM out - you are not responsible in any way, shape, or form for causing him to abuse you. He is abusing you because it fuels his desperate need for power.