Re: Update/Not giving Up

I made it for 35 days on this restricted diet. I was getting a little depressed about it because first of all, I did not Water Fast for even one whole day. Twenty hours are about the longest I went. Also, I felt that it turned into nothing more than a diet instead of a time to seek God due to events in my life. Today someone said to me, "You look so down-trodden. That's not like you. You are usually so up. Is something wrong?" I did not reply, but yes, something is wrong. Although I didn't tell the person inquiring, you dear curezone readers, if there still are any that is, get to hear it. I am not happy with how this phase of my determination to seek God turned out. I felt the weight of this failure today and was surprised that people could see a weight on me. I was invited to lunch. I was so depressed that I didn't even care anymore, so I went. That means I did not make it to the forty day mark. However, I am not giving up. I'm setting a new commitment. My new commitment will be to Water Fast at least two days every week for a 40 day period. I'm not committing to any kind of diet or liquid protocol in between the water fasts. I will eat whatever I wish and hope I can keep it healthy. I am hoping that some weeks I will be able to fast longer than the two days. I will work on putting God first in my life during this time.

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