Not "slight" whatsoever!

"Although I love the life he has given me I'm afraid he doesn't do a thing for me personally. His kiss does nothing for me, his caress does nothing for me, his attempts at romance I always sabotoge. The guy just doesn't turn me on."

So, were you aware that you weren't attracted to this man before or after he set you up to be a stay-at-home-mom on a farm with no obligations other than to accept his financial support?

No, you're not guilt tripping yourself about what happened in between marriages. You're finally grasping the fact that you married this guy for the specific purpose of providing financial security - many women (and, men) choose to do this. They would much rather enter into a civil, binding contract with someone who can provide the "Things" that will fill their emotional emptiness rather than choosing someone who will be a partner and companion.

His reaction is not unwarranted: if you think that he can't sense his level of emotional importance to you just because you've never voiced it, you're sadly mistaken. Perhaps, because this man is "good" and "kind" and "allows" you the life that you want, he may just be overly vulnerable to being used and has decided to begin the process of separating himself from you. And, could you honestly blame him? If he's tried and tried to please you and the only satisfaction that you get from his is his financial support, he has every right to distance himself from you.

If it were me, I would have to sit down and consider an honest assessment of why I chose this man, why I don't believe that I can enjoy a physical relationship with him, why I choose to maintain an emotional distance from him, and contact a marital counselor if I wanted to try to save the relationship. I would discuss my conclusions with my husband and, if there were any inkling that I could set aside my view that "...it's all about me..." I would find something to focus on and work for it to keep our relationship intact by getting involved with some serious JOINT marital counseling. And, just because I didn't NEED to work to support our lifestyle, I would either get a part-time job or begin volunteering to help those human beings who are not as privileged as I am.

Best wishes to you.