Re: Crashes are now so severe - this is new to me - is this a crash?

Hey Purple Pixie,

Im sorry you are crashing, the parasite cleanses can be a real killer.I did a Candida one for a month which was pretty awful, your temperature is as low as mine, its awful isnt it? Do you have freezing cold feet permanently? I bought a cheap footspa the other day because I have to keep the heating off now (money yet again), so cant put my feet on the radiator anymore! I hear you on the good days...sometimes I even think being in a good mood is enough to put me in a crash because i practically have no activities anymore anyway, so,maybe i reduce the 30 minutes of light yoga and not do the 10 minute walk, but that makes sleeping even worse. So confused.I wish I could offer some support/advice, but I cant nail a day without a crash at the moment so im not doing something right! I found learning mindfullness really helps slow you down, so that the world dosent seem as rushed anymore, so you can still de peaceful in all the hecticness. It was something I should of done when I was more well, pre Dr Lam. Have you looking in to anything like that?

Im currently in the fourth major crash in two days, yesterday I had three, in the morning for two hours till it calmed,then inthe afternoon for two to three hours and then at ten thirty, havent been able to sleep at all. Lipo C helps reduce the crash, but ill run out eventually All these ones started with adrenaline and tensing muscles inthe shouldser, lump intheleft of my throat, digestion gurggling, dry lips, 'lacqeur' on the roof of my mouth and the worst back pain ever. And thats just the pre-effects..then the crash comes.

Its really tough on my own, I think ive been so secretive about it because I didnt actually have a term of illness like ME to tell people, ie generally lost contact over the years with people because I just couldnt do stuff, and I ddnt want them to know how broken I was. Always been such a tough person, 'the head of the team' so to speak, always the adventurer...so I dont really have close friends anymore that i could ask. True it is my own fault in a way, but as you know, its such an isolated illness, it brings you in to yourself through the Depression and the constantly wondering what can/cant do,what you can/cant eat...My parents are a complete no, they think its in my head, and i was thrown out of home when I was 15,, so although I occasionally see them, it would indfinitely make it worse. Sorry, I must seem like such a whiner, its just the reality of the situation, no Sugar coating and stuff :)

I just wish I could have a few good days, then a few bads..its like a living hell everyday :(

I am going to ask for second opinion, but as ever, it will be a three month wait. Grr.

Thanks for writing though, its really appreciated, im Michael, well Mikey, Michael generally only when im gettingtold off :) I dont know why people are so sketchy using their real name on here! Tweet