Suger, alcohol, nutrition, emotional swings. Diabetic, with high blood pressure, and depression.

Pure Sugar is not just bad for the body. It can cause severe Sugar swings. You already know that, by your comment about protein and complex carbs. It takes a week to ten days without carbs to lose the cravings. Sugar swings cause emotional swings.

Let me tell you something about emotional swings. I had them. I had them bad. I was never taught how to resolve conflict or deal with my emotions. I lived a lot of my life in a trance and when I saw people let out emotions, it wasn't pretty. I was on an emotional roller coaster for years. When I learned to let out my feelings, I did not know the proper way, and they came out without stopping.

I was a workaholic, an overachiever, and dealt with other people's problems much easier than my own. I had a series of relationships in which I learned only a little about boundaries, mostly being a giver, and not getting much back. I had several suicide attempts.

I cried out, and wanted someone to Listen To Me. You know what, only the paid professionals listened. Most others just pitied me. I had a bottomless cup. All the love in the world would not have filled me up. It seemed no one cared unless I was giving something to them. There were times I spent all my time on the phone, counseling others. (This is one reason I don't make my email available on the site - I use helping others as an excuse not to work on myself. I have to make my own boundaries.)

I believed in the natural way. I would not take medication. I used food as a crutch; it consoled me.

I had a crisis where I went to take care of my alcoholic mother for a year, and she ended up hating me. After that, I gave up. I was too tired to help anyone anymore. No more going here and there to help people. I felt guilty when I did not go to stay with my aunt when I knew she was slowly dying, but I just could not give myself away anymore. Somehow that helped the emotional roller coaster. During this time, I was finally diagnosed diabetic, with high blood pressure, and depression. I was up to the highest dose of my antidepressant. I cried and cried because how could I have come to this? No matter what I did I could not get my sugar under control.

It took a couple of years to get my sugar under control, slowly changing my diet. It did not happen overnight, but under control only with medication.

I think, in the orderly way of the universe, I had to find peace before I could find iodine. After three months on iodine, I was able to get off all medications. To this date I have not lost the weight I need to lose, but I know that will come. I have to choose to concentrate on, and have gratitude for, how far I HAVE COME, not how far I HAVE TO GO.

Peace is a choice. We get to the emotional roller coaster by default - we don't know any better. Most people don't understand this roller coaster - it scares them. I have been there. I know how dangerous it is. I also know that most people don't care, generally, about what kind of pain one is in. So that leaves people like you and me with a choice. We continue on the emotional roller coaster and end up in a psychiatric ward, with the option that paid professionals listen to us. Or we slowly begin taking charge of our own lives, trying to get rid of the things that got us to this point and replacing them with healthier habits.

I started by watching others to see how they handled certain situations. I got myself away from all negative influences, anger, drugs, alcohol. It seemed I was attractive to friends with these problems, because I grew up with drama. Life was not exciting without drama, was it? I had to wean myself away from all the drama after I figured out it wasn't good for me. I prayed a lot, listened to a lot of Christian TV, allowed only positive supportive people in my life. I had to come to the point that other people could not, for some reason, take care of me, as I was capable of taking care of them. I had to take care of myself. If not me, who?

I see you at the point where you can choose to panic, to go a little crazy, to let your emotions take you where they will and end up, as Trapper says, in a hospital with an IV in your arm, or maybe Baker acted. Or you can choose peace in this moment, just for this moment, just for this hour, just for this day. The salt will help calm you. Iodine will help you. We will help you. But no one, except paid professionals, can help you if you cannot get off that emotional roller coaster.

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