i think the reason why you did that your nephew or cousin is because it was done to you. you wouldnt have done it if it didnt happen to you.
you should listen to this radio program. some lady went through the same thing you have went through. its not that uncommon. but you should need to learn how to Foregive your uncle. you might like what h has to say about the subject. take care and i wish you well. forgive that uncle