no one ever deserves to be abused in any way. i want all of you to remember that. i have been in a few abusive realationships in my time, and at the time, i was so brainwashed, i thought it was my fault. you dont have to go to the party. you dont have to face them. i have decided, if im not comfortable,im not going, to hell with them. sorry for being so blunt. stop beating yourself up about this. you did not deserve it, no matter what you did. you are so much better than them. its time to get the self esteem back. its time to vent, get angry, cry, feel the emotions. just get it out. i will listen to you, i am here, any time. dont hold it in any more, its making you sick. please keep in touch, cloe JEGCL3@AOL.COM