God bless you Ali. I was so scared about posting this. I have never talk to anyone else besides my husband about this. I was aboused by my brother when I was 15 years old too. Then raped at 18 years old, I guess I deseved it for what I did.I have 3 brothers and one sister and every one of them was sexualy abused by and aunt or uncle :(. My mother is haveing a B-day party for my grandma and everyone is going to be there. I dont think I can face my cousin and uncles. I get panic attacks just thinking about it. I guess Ill have to deal with it when the time comes.