Re: narcissim in my life, 13738

Thank you for your kind words. I will check out the links that you sugguested.

I have tried therapy, it took me five years to get there and the support of a very good friend. I was so afraid of having to re-live the horror of my dads murder again but it was very cleansing. We did touch on my sisters behavoir a bit but I would still be there had we went through it all. she made all the other ordeals that we had to go through 100 X's worse. I don't think I will ever get over my dads death, it will always, always be a part of me. However, I feel with everything that has happened in my life I can find something positive and that is to help someone else. I have often reflected why so much bad has happened to me. I have read on the Law of attraction site how we are responsible for what happens in our life and I wonder, my gawd, what have I done or am doing to receive this!!

We live in a rural community where acts of violence are rare. I questioned if my therapist would even have the skills to help me. It's sort of like, wear my shoes, walk a mile, then you will truly know. She was a bit limited but she really really wanted to help and she was a good listener.

I am taking a long time to say what I want, but I want to turn this all around, good is always suppose to prevail over evil and the only thing I know to do is to take what I have learnt and share it with others. Thankyou 19236 and others for your support, I know I have ranted but man it feels good. Tweet