Re: Day 4 - Crustiness for sale?

Possibly. But not if it means doing another colonoscopy. Like I was supposed to keep seeing the doctors, but that was two July's ago and I was heading to India beginning of August. Went for roughly over 4 weeks, came back sorted though having the most painful and uncomfortable experience of my life. And then a few week's later university began. I could never make the appointment's due to not being in the city, and I wasn't so proactive about it either, thus it got rescheduled and rescheduled, and I told them I wouldn't be able to make an appointment for 2 or 3 months and they said they had to then discharge me to my GP and I had to get rereferred when I could. Did that, but haven't made an appointment yet, or actually one was made in September but I had to leave the city for uni.

I know they're probably right, because my bowel behaviour tells me so. But I'm not totally confident, and having sorted this fistula out and also having no interest in taking immunosuppressant drugs, I haven't been that bothered. I know IBD's are serious though, and if it suddenly becomes active I'd be in for a whole load of bullshit. So I do intend to get seen. I'm hoping diet and eating behaviour has a large significance however, where I am making efforts.

Hmm, I don't think it's because of toothpaste. Have been using stuff like Pronamel and Sensodyne and no difference. To my knowledge I have no sensitivities, but it's worth looking into. Generally I don't eat processed foods, I eat meat, vegetables, throughout my life and at the moment grains, rice and pasta. At some point I intend to go back on the paleo diet though.

Well, since my gap year of isolation, I've basically had depression. Had been basically on a downward path for a year and a half. But since August I've been on my way back up. I've interrupted my studies for a semester will repeat from February 1st year's semester 2, and until then am slowly, without pressure, building up my routine and lifestyle. Since August for the first time in over a year and a half/three-quarter's, my sleep pattern is finally on point. And that has had huge positive impacts as a basis. I've gone from 6am to 5am wake up and pursuing my goals. Life is good, apart from EC. It's still stopping me from going for girls.

So I'm doing ayt. But most days I feel this box in my chest, reminding me that I have to be consistent and making progress every day, otherwise Depression will eat me up.