Leaving alone has me remembering the past

Man, this EC thing has affected my mood. It's been so long since I've left my lips alone to see what happens.

Doing this has reminded me of years back when I used to avoid this girl I liked.
About 3 days ago I spoke to this random girl on my campus and we had a great convo, she was pretty too. I'd have taken her number, but I've stopped doing that to see if Epsom Salt can fix my EC. Then yesterday, I went into the place where you can buy coffee and snacks, and went to the bit to find water. Then I see her again, sitting on a high-up chair-table, facing the other direction. I considered for a second to talk to her, and then put down the water bottle, turned around and swiftly left the scene. f***ing year 9 - 11 all over again. And my lips weren't even that bad. If it was today I would have U-turned so hard I'd have been spinning on the spot.

I was about to say that leaving my lips has alone has made me feel I'd rather just live with this thing, exfoliating forever. But man that darn white line and gooey stuff. Hmmmmmmm......