See this is the thing..I personally do not know how much others have suffered in this curezone community (and either do you, unless you know each and every person's story and have lived each and every life of each person here); hence I can't say for certain whether your pain and suffering is greater than someone elses and I don't think you can either, can you?
I am sure you have suffered alot as you say and I'm really sorry that you have suffered so much, but its really folly to assume you are the biggest sufferer here; this community is enormous!
It is very interesting and worth thinking about. Don't run away! Do think about it for a while if you are able.