Dear Maya, thank you so much for taking the time to help me out. I sooo appreciate this. Yes, my relationship IS the one thing that I want so much to be the way I desire. I admit, I really would love it so much if he was the One. Yes, I feel discouraged and dissappointed. I feel like I was aligned before he called and he called to see me and it got my hope up that things would turn out the way I want.
Its weird, there are days where I feel so great and focus on the perfect mate and feel good no matter what my guy does or if I hear from him. I think if he is the right one, fine, if not, fine. I felt like that before he called to see me Monday and even yesterday believe it or not. I went to workout and felt sooo good, had fun chatting with men.then the let down later in the day, out of the blue.
You are right Maya, I have been putting on band aids. The pain is there. I dont understand how I can really feel SO good much of the time under those band aids!
I feel confused. I was also thinking about the oxytocin link. Women supposedly produce a lot of this hormone when with a man, especially intimately. This hormone supposedly keeps you attached, which is wonderful if all is well. Its definitely not helping to stay aligned and not see what is.
I will read those links you gave me when I am on my break in a while before going back to work later. I will have plenty of time to do so also on Saturday and Sunday.