Dear A.H., I want you to know that I am new in this forum and just decided to log-in after reading your post. My heart cries out for you. You mentioned at the very first opening "PLEASE GOD, WHAT DO I DO?.... In my opinion, (because I'd been in the same boat where you are), is to LISTEN TO WHAT GOD IS TELLING YOU. What shezatrip2 said is all you need to do. It worked with me several years ago and I know it will work on you too.
You also mentioned, "IS THERE A WAY OUT?".. yes there is and the ONLY way out is JESUS. Find a Bible believing church and I strongly believe that it should be the first thing you need to do. A.H. we are praying for you. We would like you to not only find yourself but to find your new self in Jesus. He is the source of genuine peace, love and happiness. If you have a Bible, start reading it. JESUS LOVES YOU!