Re: Am I destined to DIE?
This is a pretty "out-there" suggestion, but... have you considered that it might be entity attachment, also known as spirit possession? Some of the things you said in your post made me think that this could be the root of your problems. Do some research on it if you think it's a possibility.
Symptoms of spirit attachment can include (taken from various sources):
- An inner voice that constantly criticizes you
- A variety of changing physical maladies with no obvious cause
- Irrational fear, anger, sadness or guilt or suicidal tendencies
- Hearing voices
- Sudden weight gain or loss
- Fears and phobias
- Sudden changes in behavior--such as increased anger,
Depression and thoughts of suicide
- Serious illness of unknown cause
- Loss of energy
- Memory and concentration problems
- Unexplained physical problems--such as pain from an undetermined cause
- Migraine headaches
- Night terrors and nightmares
- Panic or anxiety attacks
- Multiple personalities
- Sudden depression, rage, edginess, anger, sadness, or anxiety
- Feeling suddenly dizzy or off-balance
- Sleeplessness
- Repetitive or weird thoughts
- Personality changes, loss of "self"
- Chronic or sudden health concerns
- Manic depression
- Outbursts
- Addictions
- Relationship problems
Some common situations creating susceptibility for attachment:
* Traumatic accident
* Surgery, especially with anesthesia
* Substance abuse (Even a few beers are enough to open your shield)
* Sickness, fever
* Depression, anxiety, stress
* Jealousy, attached love, wanting revenge, wanting to control
* Addictions, Gambling
* Violence, intimidation, fear
* Incest, abusive sex
* Death in the family, inappropriate attached "compassion"
* Non-discerning channeling or naive use of pendulum and ouija board
* Practicing magic (black or gray)
* Out-of-Body Experience without appropriate precaution