Re: crack & alcohol addicted boyfriend who I called police on - I still love him and can't seem to let go

Sweetheart...I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know exactly how you feel and where you are.

Let me share a little something I've learned .... when my X was at rehab they taught us that crack is so powerful, that one can be addicted to it after one use. That is phenomenal. Rehabs used to see alcoholics come in after 25-30 years of abuse....with crack they are seeing users come in after only a few months. It accelerates the addiction process and is extremely dangerous! I am pleased that you have that disoriented, not quite myself feeling and hate it. Please, please, PLEASE don't ever go nnear it again. It is pure poison!

My advice is to cut yourself off from him completely WITHOUT explanation. Go away from him...if you have to move then move but get and stay far away from him and his cohorts. There is nothing but death there. I'm not saying anyone is going to try and kill you...but to be involved with them any further is to open yourself...your spirit if you will...up to these extremely detrimental influences.

I'm not sure if you should fear for your physical self because I don't know all the details but I will tell you that crack will make people do desperate things. I would be extremely careful especially since you have a little one. I wasn't able to protect my son when I was with my X simply because I was naive and didn't know what was going on behind my back. Drug addicts are VERY deceptive peiople and will know how to play their victims.

Depending on whether you live in a small town or big city will determine whether your police will pay any mind to your concerns. They may very well know of his existance and activities already and the information you give them may assist in shutting them down...either way, if you can't move keep a VERY watchful eye out...when your son goes to school...when he comes home. Always have him looked after if you cannot be there.

Please knpow I understand your loss...I was determined to make my relationship work...but one can't do it all by themselves. Get out and stay out NOW and save yourself years of torment. I wish I could give you my years experience so you could know that I am not making this up...or blowing anything up out or proportion. I really don't want anyone else to ever have to go through what I did.

By your statements I know that you know in your heart there is really nothing left.....please declare this relationship dead and grieve it...but not too long. You are a very sweet, sensitive, caring person. I know this because that is the type of person that these scuzbags look for. They aren't stupid you know...they know that they will get serious mileage out of someone like you and me.

I want you to know that there is someone out there who will love you for who you are...and that God loves you more than you could ever know. I thank Him right now that He is taking you out of this before any more damage can be done....rely on Him...lean on Him. He's real and He's there for you and always will be. My prayers are with you and your son.

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