crack & alcohol addicted boyfriend who I called police on - I still love him and can't seem to let go

I had a boyfriend for 4 months and it seems like it's pretty much over. He did meet with me yesterday but he's very upset at me. He's a crack-coccaine addict and an alcoholic but we did have lots of good times together but also at least 1/2 dozen bad occurances happened within the 4 months. The last bad occurance was on Feb 9th about 1.5 weeks ago I think. He upset me and told me to go home and I started walking home but that was the 3rd time
in a row a bad incident happened and he treated me badly and so
I walked back to his house. And I threatened to do all these things to cause him problems (example: call his landlord about all these room-mates living with him - they give him money to help support his alcohol/drug habit - this was just 1 of the like 5 things I said I do to cause him trouble). Well he ran toward me as if he was going to hit me twice and the 2nd time I really thought he was going to start hitting me and he had me on the floor and he put his foot on top of me to hold me down. He didn't hurt me or cause me injury. And so I ended up leaving and I called the police. But the room-mates didn't tell the truth about what happened and the police didn't arrest him. The police did however contact his parole officer and according to my boyfriend (I guess X-boyfriend now) he might be put under house arrest. I've been very heartbroken and I've not gotten to spend the night with him for close on 2 weeks. He's says I can't come over there anymore -the police told him not to have me over there anymore and if anyone calls the police back the police will arrest both me and him. My boyfriend isn't all bad - he has allot of good in him and he's a very pleasant, friendly, kind person when he's not all strungout on his alcohol and crack. But when he gets in a dark mood he can be verbally cruel. That's the only time he physically was going to hurt me and I think it's because I really provoked him by threatening to cause havoc in his life. He agreed to see me yesterday (Friday) and we played pool together but then he just started saying things to hurt and upset me. Then to find out I think he only saw me to tell me I should go to the police station and tell them I was just mentally messed up that night (hearing voices and stuff) and that it wasn't true and the stuff about him taking drugs wasn't true. So he wanted me to go lie to the police although that is a felony to do so. And the thing is I didn't lie to the police in the 1st place that night of Feb 9th. I still love him so much. I still want things to work out between us but it doesn't look good. And I don't know if he will ever give up his drugs and alcohol. So what should I do - should just forget him? I don't know if I'll ever be able to forget about him. Tweet