A bit more about Zen, the originater of the attacks...

020916---Well, the energy attack residue, is very weak any more. Apparently that Zen guy put layers and layers of latent energy, which by morning starts up again to a small degree, and I have to clear it out as well as a layer of energy protecting it from being removed like with a washcloth or something, but which can be removed with EFT.

Man, if I hadn't figured this out, I'd probably been suffering for years. I'm sure he hoped I would anyway. It just kills me that he hated me this much. I honestly never hurt him in any way. But apparently just being my essentially spontaneous and vocal self was enough.

I've seen his life somehow (he's not in our collective unconscious) so their overarching sentience might have given it to mine, who then gave it to me. I see that he was being groomed to be a high El-*th by his mother.

Her family was originally a High El-*th family, and she was obsessed that the family should regain it. Apparently if a High E-*th gets involved with a regular El*th, it dilutes the energy working ability to the point, the children won't be powerful enough to be High El-*th any longer.

She was such a child. She schemed and planned and managed to get a High El-*th to sleep with her and she managed to get pregnant twice by him. This was back just after the dragon war, and el-*th spirits were still needing bodies). Generous life mate there, knowing neither son was his. Zen was the oldest son, and from the minute he was born practically, she was manipulating and controlling his every waking hour, making his life very unhappy.

She drove him with threats of how if he didn't make high el-*th, he would be a miserable failure, and not worthy of her love. Saying even until he made high el-*th, he wasn't worthy of her love. Basing diet, sleeping times and other life necessary stuff on whether or not she felt he'd been working hard enough in gaining the necessary skills for the test.

His younger brother was getting similar treatment but their dad shielded him some what, so she concentrated most on Zen. And around age 50 (rather like 12 for us) the test is given to determine who's got what it takes to be High El-*th. They can test as many times as they want. A large part of it is actual ability to use energy, but some of it was dependent on mental stability. Can't have a wacko running around with High El-*th abilities, they can do too much damage.

Needless to say, after his mother's treatment, Zen wasn't. While he was strong enough energy working wise, he was way too battered to pass the stability part. He failed the test repeatedly. His mother of course rejected him completely and redirected her attention on to his younger brother.

He, because of his father's intervention and the lack of intense emotional threats, tested and actually made the cut.

Mom was thrilled. If you have a child who's made high el-*th, it gives you almost as much standing as being high el-*th.

The successful child moves to the high el-*th lodgings and begins training. Apparently, a high el-*th is so much more powerful than the regular el-*th because they get trained how to better direct it and such, as well as given training about the 'proper' way to act. Sorta like the regular el-*th are enlisted and High El-*th are officers--the officers are expected to behave to a code.

Although his brother made it, his mother still wouldn't forgive Zen for failing her. But being a total manipulator, she basiclly ran Zen around by the nose, hinting if he did this or that, maybe she could find it in her heart to forgive and love him, and on and on.

I have found it interesting how the regular el-*th have a lot of same emotional issues you see in humanity. The king is working out some tapping statements for this type of issue too. There are very strong censers against using energy against humans though. Zen wasn't attacking me as a human, he was attacking me as the Oracle/dagon rider. It's highly unlikely a regular human would draw this kind of fire in light of the punishment involved should they try.

What I've realized too, is that Zen's hatred of me was deeper than the Oracle/dragon rider level though. It was my ok-ness with blurting out what I was thinking, and having no one who obviously can control me. His desperate longing to be free of his mother who controlled his every word, every movement, every waking thought made him so jealous of me. I was the epitome of what he hated because there was no way he'd ever have it. It enraged him that I was free, and he still so deeply imprisoned by his mother and her approval.

Again, nothing I did--just who I was. And still in a position of note, where he had to see my free behavior every day. I think he went a bit crazy, actually. His mothers been driving him for 110 million years. I'm not sure how anyone could have stayed sane after that.

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