Food is ruining my life!!!!!!!!!!

Everyday has been a try to fast day. I do well in the morning, but then the intense need for food comes, my sweet cravings for chocolate, large sweet teas and sodas rain upon me :( Breads with melted cheeses, heavy red sauces, and too many bowls of Fruity Pebbles go down my throat. I do so well, but my cravings for food hit me!! Once I did so well that at 10pm something I couldn't sleep tosing and turnning out of hunger. I woke up that day and ruined it in tears with three cheese burgers a large fry, and a large orange soda easy on the ice. Food has complete control over my life, when am happy, bored, excited, tired, sad, ect. doesn't matter. My weight is in the obese range and the chart says am 40 something and at risk of a heart attack and many other things that could kill me.

Am tired of waking up fat, am tired of trying new diets, pills, and thinking thin. I want a change so bad and sick of thinking of food. Its ruining me dating wise....no guy is interested in dating the obese even the obese guys themselves. Only guys looking for a one nighter which is gross and wrong! Its hard to get a job people judge you based on weight someone with less skills but is slim gets the job and top pay. Even studies prove that people who are slim are taken more serious at work then us faties.

I tried loving myself and I really did...oddly loing myself so much I gained about 20 pounds doing so. My joints hurt, back hurts, tired of waking up looking at large rolls in the morning.....all over stupid cravings that are impossible to control!


I wanted to fast for weight loss, weight loss for health, for me, and a better life overall, I wanted to fast for spiriual reasons and curious about the astral, I wanted to fast for better skin, clear focus in my studies, ect.

To the point how do I control my cravings? So I can make it past day one?