>>"I can do that but I'm waiting for that youth love again. That's where I was headed when the war came along. I can see now that I was indeed lucky to have the in love experience. We were only together 3 years but man, it was GREAT"
I'm not sure if I understand this correctly, and I also hope you don't feel like Torrie and I are ganging up on you. But certain things you say leave us somewhat disturbed. If we didn't care (Torrie, forgime me for the "we" thing, but I think you and I are on the same page on this) about helping a fellow human being to see the forest for the trees, we wouldn't stick our neck out into somebody else's business.
Does what you say above imply that you are thinking of trying to re -establish a relationship with the same girl that you knew eons ago? If so, this could have some serious implications. People do change, and although there are some things that people can seemingly share for an eternity, there are many other areas of our life in which we evolve from the time of our youth onwards. Relationships change over time as well, and the way people relate in their youth is markedly different from the way they do when they are older.
Are you making realistic plans, or are you planning on something so ethereal and unreal that you will once again be disappointed when it doesn't materialize the way you imagined?
Certainly the times of our youth held wonderful magical moments, but those moments do not continue on in the same way. Sure there are always beautiful things to grasp at every age of our existence, but they have a different quality and flavor from the things of youth. As a matter of fact, if we have truly enjoyed and grown from every successive experience, then the experiences in our later years leave the earlier ones looking pale by virtue of their depth and richness.
I'm not trying to discourage you from carrying out your dreams, but please make sure that what you plan is actually realistic so that you don't walk into an emotional trap again.