Our prayers can magnetize whatever we want into life... Rather than focusing on your angry feelings and frustrations....start visualizing a loving way out...as you give your visualized loving new life to the Holy Spirit...your life will flow that way...While you remain focused on the drama of your situation...it is hard to visualize a wonderful new way. Step out of the drama of your story...because that is your mother's story...& step into your life... Don't magnetize your mother's life into your life...let it go... We all have a loving spiritual family that is not necessarily our biological family...It is time for you to move on to that spiritual family but don't don't move on in fear...move on with joy... It is tough... I lived with an abusive alcoholic for ten years... Apart from the drama she created every day, I found a way to stay focused on what I could do to please God.That distraction from her story made living with her possible. When her drama became so dangerous that it began risking my life...I left. Get out with your life... When you have moved on and into your life, you might even start having fond memories of your mother again. .. When you get caught up in someone else's drama it is hard to see anything else... Look for your love story...Look for your awakening... Wake up to the possiblity of something wonderful occuring in your life..
As long as you remain focused on a negative story of your life, you will remain in that negative story. Find your love story and magnatize your own beautiful love story to your life.