Re: need your prayers and advise!
I feel for you and you definitely have my prayers. You seem to be stuck in a terrible position, yet you obviously still love your mother. What she is doing to you is wrong. Please don't believe the lies she tells you. You are loved by God and you are unique and you have lots to offer. God gave you life for a reason. You mentioned about trusting, that can be very hard for someone who is in your shoes. Put your trust in God. People will always let you down, we are human. But God is ALWAYS there and understands everything even when we don't have the energy or the right words to say. I think the best thing for you to do is move from that situation. No one can stay in an environment like that. Plus you don't deserve that. You deserve better. Tell yourself that and BELIEVE it. I'm sure deep down your mother loves you. She obviously has issues, maybe from her childhood, that she is taking out on you. It isn't fair, I know, but try to understand why she does what she does and realize that it ISN"T YOU. It is HER that has problems and she is lashing out at the ones closest to her, you. I know this is probably easier said than done, but try to have compassion towards your mother. Love her, and forgive her for the wrongs she is doing to you. I don't want you to confuse what I am saying though, what she is doing is not right and I certainly don't condone it, but love and forgiveness is where your peace is going to come from. And it is not wrong to separate yourself from her, in fact it would be a good idea. I don't think you have to cut ties completely but at least for a while it might be a good idea. Tell her firmly and respectly that you have had enough and are not going to tolerate and live your life like this anymore. God does not expect you to stay in an abusive situation so no, separating yourself from her is NOT a sin. Pray for your mother, that is the best thing you can do. God will reward you for that. And if you have any bitterness or unforgiveness towards her, pray that God will help you to release that. Otherwise you will not experience the best God has for you. He says to forgive and you will be forgiven, and vice versa. If we don't forgive we will not be forgiven. I am concerned about her comments of killing you. Please, if she is threatening your life and you believe she is serious, go to the authorities and get out of that house immediately. And don't worry about her voodoo, we serve a bigger God than that. Also, she can't demand YOUR money. You earned it, it is YOURS. You don't have any obligation to give her your money no matter what she says. Can I ask you a few questions? You said she demands your money and will do whatever it takes to get it. What do you mean? What would she do? Also, how old are you? Are you in the United States? Do you or have you read the Bible? Is it just you and your mother in the house? Do you have anyone you can trust and go to for help? Please write back. I am very concerned.
Nicole