Re: need your prayers and advise!

Dear Implode,
When everyone is telling you exactly the same thing it's because there is wisdom in what you are being told.
You do not need to know why your mother does what she does, some day all these things will become clearer to you. You also need to silence the guilt inside yourself so that you can function. This type of mentally ill and controlling person works by instilling guilt as well as fear, the fear will take you some time to get over inside yourself, but the guilt you can dismiss quicker, and get going.
I wish you told us a little more about you because I'm sure everyone here would totally agree on helping you as much as possible. Perhaps in your state there are county mental health facilities where you can speak to a trained councelor for free. These folks might be able to offer solutions that you are not aware of. Look in your phone book. In your case, I think you might need the emotional and practical backup. Please check out this option. You need someone you can talk to so that you are not struggling out all on your own. When someone has been subjected to a life long stripping of their morale, they can feel too weak to function in many areas. You have one terrific thing going for you; you are very bright and you reason things out very well. This will help you enormously in the long run, and YOU WILL survive!!!!
Please make your plans and leave without saying a word. You will forgive your mother when you begin to heal, but for now your survival is your first order of priority. You say you are a Christian. Do you have a church or ministry that you can go to? You need to find a place that teaches the truth out of the love of God, not a bunch of rigid rules and regulations, or you'll end up thinking God is just like your mother. (He's not!)
Please consider every one of the things you have been adviced, choose which best suits you, and then act upon it quickly. And please, please let us know, we will definitely be praying for your strength, courage and safety. Tweet