Hello there,
I just stumbled on your message today several years later and I am not sure if you will ever see this but if you do please do not give up. There is hope. You need to begin to read the bible like never before and there is a book by a man called Derek Prince which directs people on how to get delivered by themselves.
I just downloaded the ecopy from the intnet
It is called
How to expel demons by Derek Prince.
There is great power in the blood of Jesus and His Word!
Be careful with the deliverance ministries pray to God to help you find the right one as some of them do more harm than good.
Hold on to the word of God and follow the instructions in the book if you find it.
There are also some you tube videos...type in Derek prince, how to be delivered from Demons.
May the Holy Spirit Himself help you.
Praying for you.