i havent been reading your posts and i am not responding to you. you have personalized what i have said. i dont even know you. getting to know people is a lot of work. it is also very painful for me as i am a super empath. im the opposite of a narcissist which is why my defences seem narcissistic.
im not a masochist either so i dont try real hard to get to know people. again, its not personal at all.