I am not confused. I know the difference between organized religion and what you claim is a personal relationship with a being whose existence was invented by corrupt religious leaders for their own purposes. You believe because of what you've been taught - virtually everyone does - unless we learn to think for ourselves.
It's sad that you are unaware of where your belief system came from. You can't comprehend that you're not 100% right. I'm far more interested in how you treat other people and how you live your life than in what you believe. Same goes for everyone I meet.