I am sorry to hear that you were preached to by hypocrites and it seems to have soured you on my Lord Jesus. Hopefully at some point you will realize that those who preached were not Him and any mistakes they may have made were not His mistakes. My Lord instructed His followers to share the good news and i will continue to listen to Him over you. If you don't want to hear the good news about my Lord Jesus, all you need do is not participate in this public forum. I will just repeat the sentiment that since you are not in love with my Lord Jesus you can't know what it's like and you can't know that the blessings would be vastly more immense to be with a woman who is also in love with Him. Blessings.