Re: 21 months post, new treatment plan

Hi Cynthleal & everyone,
I am sorry that you had to go through this and still are not better. I am glad to hear you have improved though. For me, I'd like to try to get pregnant and see what that does but my husband drinks too much and does not want to have a child because in my opinion, he'd rather drink then help take care of a baby. I guess there will be no child in my future. I really have no support or friends to go to and I feel for me there is not much reason to fight anymore. I feel like nothing matters anymore, I am all alone and I lost my faith. Sorry to say this but I just don't have any faith or hope left. I was pregnant once. As a matter of fact my child would be turning 14 years old today or tomorrow but I lost that child during pregnancy. I feel like that might have been the only child that I would ever have.
I wish I had a will to go on or a purpose but I don't see much of a point in it. At least most of the Mirena suffers do have children and a loving family and friends to give them a reason to fight. I don't. No one other then my Mom would miss me much. But, even my Mom is so needy and has issues herself I think it would not be me that she misses but more so what I do for her. I do everything for her and that is who she knows. She does not know who I really am. Anyways, sorry for this long post. I really wish everyone the best and a great life! Remember, I am "better" then 1 year ago but still this is the hardest thing I ever had to deal with because I am still so far away from "normal" that I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. The light was shining for awhile several months ago when I first saw improvement, I had hope, but now since things have stalled out I am so sad.
Take care, Jackie. Tweet