Re: 21 months post, new treatment plan

Hi! I did give up on all doctors and medication. I take nothing except vitamins. I don't go to the doctor anymore because I have been to them all and nothing has helped much. My symptoms are anxiety, depression, extreme fatigue, swollen hands & feet & legs, tingling feelings in legs & weight gain. I try to ignore it or convince myself that I am fine but that does not work. I am much "better" than when this all started but now over the last 6 months or so there has been no improvement. I feel like this all day, everyday. For me, it does not come & go, it is every single day. I feel so different that I don't even know who I am anymore. I hate looking in the mirror. I have aged so much, I look like I have aged 10+ years in 1 year.
I do get out of the house and work and do everything that I would normally do because I have to, however, it does not make me feel better. I have learned how to fake it for the most part no one knows that I am still very sick. I cry when I am alone (in the car, in the shower, washing dishes when my head is down, etc.)
I can not talk about this with my husband, he has a drinking problem and our communication is not like that. My Mom has her own problems and I would never talk about it with her. I have no one which makes this so much more lonely.
Take care everyone, thanks for responding!
XO, Jackie Tweet