Please, please leave. It will never get better I am sorry to say. My sis. in law is in the same situation as you and her husband is a narcissist as well. Her kids are practicly begging her to leave but still she hesitates! Please leave to the states. Ask your family for money to come back. Let them know the situation. If you have to find a job there and then leave and save up money to get to the states. Its so sad that you have to go through this. You have done nothing wrong! God will help you not be angry with you, you must know that! I will be praying for you! Be strong it took courage to post!My heart is hurting for you. Please update us!