Re: Another Sad Post - Today i lost my business

I was as low as you are a few years ago - my family thought I was nuts - I had to move back home as I had to quit my job due to ill health and they watched me like a hawk - trying to make me get up early and make 'the most of the day' when I was absolutely exhausted, berating me for not helping with the housework (I was chronically tired most of the day). They controlled everything I ate as they knew I had allergies and tried to get me to go on Anti-depressants. One day they sat me down and told me if I thought postive thoughts I would be fine - it was just all in my head. It was the lowest point of my entire life as I was in my mid-20's. To add to it - friends were getting fed up when I kept cancelling on them and stopped texting,calling - a few even said I wasn't as much fun anymore which was awful as I have never stopped being the same person inside. I tried to push myself for so long as I couldn't bear what they all thought - and then I had a kind of ephiphany -I went to a fantastic dietician (who is also still my counsellor) who the minute I mentioned my symptoms told me I had candida - finally a diagnosis.

For a long time I was worried it was all in my head but my inner strength forced me on and on and when I went to see the dietician I felt vindicated and it gave me the strength to carry on. It was real - the upset stomachs, the allergies, the chronic fatigue all symptoms of a horrendous condition. This gave me the strength to carry on - it still hurts thinking about what everything thought of me - but I have come to realise the most important thing is what I think myself - my parents still don't fully understand, but they now try and neither do my friends fully but unless you live it 24/7 I think you can never understand the effect it has physically and more importantly the mental impact.

It does get better - I cut and pasted a lot of stuff from the internet to give me parents - very basic stuff and they really started to get it - could you try that - I think it clicked for them when I mentioned the anti-biotic link.

Now we have a good relationship - and my real friends are there, even though there are only a few - they are the good ones and worth having.

Keep the faith - its a long journey but there is an end to it, even though it feels at times that road it too rocky. I truly believe with this you have to hit rock bottom to realise what it important and to appreciate all the major and minor victories on the way back to good health.

emme