Wow, im sooo sorry to hear about your sad news. Im starting to realize that there alot of youngsters on this forum dealing with candida. I can relate to a certain extent on how your feeling and the frustation. Do Not Give Up is key!
There will be rainy days in life but there must be shower days for it to be light..
for instance if a flower only grew from sun it will be burnt to crisp, you need rain for it grow as well....just a figure of speech.
All im saying is its not the end of the world and you CAN get over it...just takes time,self-believe and patience